Crushes

So I saw the guy I had been crushing on,whom I had spent several nights with. I don't have feelings for him anymore ever since he started acting real weird. But damn he is so sexy. I feel glad to have had someone so fine burying their face in my crotch. It's too bad I can't have real sex, that would have been so fucking hot. Ah well--it was a good experience.

I do have a new crush. He is a friend I've had for awhile. He is super super nice and hanging out with him makes me very happy. However he is so nice and shy that I have absolutely no idea how to even initiate anything sexual. But the probability seems good that he feels the same way about me. So I guess I can weather some incredibly awkward couch cuddling or something until I gain the confidence to make the moves.

And also, confusingly enough, there is a friend of mine who has been increasingly pushing the boundaries as of late. He is significantly older than me (As in, older than the older guy I was previously messing with). He seems like he has low self esteem, so I've tried to be nice about it. But that seems to have just gotten me into a messier situation. I sheepishly confess to enjoying the flattery. But I really shouldn't fan the flames. I don't know if a little bit of sexy time is worth the headache of the aftermath.