Sad and Wrong Long Overdue

You are special. You are kind, you are beautiful, you are smart. You are everything a man should be.

I am a weak, I have failed you. I was wrong. I messed up.

I should have been enough for you, enough for us. I refused to be that person.

I wanted to hurt. I wanted to bring pain because others have brought me pain. I was frustrated. I was at the end of my rope. I thought that made it okay. I tossed you out. I was determined to make a stand.

Because I felt alone, misunderstood, not listened to.

Now I'm still alone, But I can feel again. And I can feel pain in my heart. You beautiful fragile soul, You who have blindly loved me when I thought no one else would. In ways that no one else ever could.

Maybe it was all a farce, but I'm cold and alone and it sounds so good from here. Lie to me. Say it again. Fuck me like you love me. Even when you hate me.

I couldn't see it. I was a fool. I couldn't see. I was blind.