Feeling Unfocused

But I wanted to post anyways.

I wrote some stuff but it got deleted. Clearly a sign I shouldn't post the crap I was going to post.

I feel many things right now, but I post none of them.

Tentative dilator goal:

Start using the dilator 3 until that becomes the baseline. As in, the 3 goes in virtually effortlessly like my finger can or the 2 can. The aim here is to make 3 easily accessible, thus making the 4 a non event to insert. Which would then make the 5 doable.The girth of a penis is at the 5 level. Then I can try to work with the mechanics of sex.

Also, make spreading legs in yoga less traumatic feeling. Still some serious issues there.

Read anal sex book!