Moving Forward.

Moving forward as I should be. Trying to get used to the sensation of penetration. What a very strange thing indeed. This is a treatment of my mind, body, attitudes, past misconceptions and the very encoding of every thought and memory I've had about sex. It's insane really, to see how out of hand things can get.

I think that some people are more susceptible to such traumatic mindsets more than others. To explain more clearly: A very large amount of people receive negative information about sex. An even larger amount of people have sexual hangups. But the entire female population doesn't suffer from vaginismus. Only some of us do (A number which I do not know). Why? I don't know. Has the influence been more bodily potent on us than others? How would this explain the phenomenon that both myself and my sister both suffer from it, despite having no known history of sexual abuse? I remember a specific set of memories that I believe to be the triggers to vaginsmus, but how could they have been so triggering? And how can we stop other girls from having to endure it as well?

There is much I don't know.

Moving forward, moving forward.