2013 was kind of a terrible year, and now almost two months into 2014, I would really like to let it go. I'm approaching the years mark of my two family members death, which marked the downward spiral of my year. It feels like I've lost so much, friendships, family, love, excitement. And sometimes it makes it hard to keep my chin up. I know that it can only go up from here, but it's overwhelming. Because I have to do all the walking. I hike up the mountain of self-improvement on my own, sometimes blindly, sometimes getting lost and cold and sad. But when I look up at the sky, there is only sun to greet me. That sun reminds me that I'm alive, that I'm strong.
It's okay to cry and be weak, its okay to be scared. Because those are just feelings, and feelings will pass. There will always be those who hurt you, but wounds heal. Sometimes they scar, but what is a scar but a mark on the surface? Hurt doesn't take away from what your are, what you have, what you worked hard for. Hurt doesn't change the fundamental building blocks that make you.
So hurt, and then get up and be who you are. Work hard. Live, in all your tears and hurt, and be that person you were meant to be.
This reminded me of an irish blessing I heard once.
ReplyDelete"May the road rise to meet you
May the wind be always at your back
May the sun shine warm upon your face
The rains fall soft upon your fields
And until we meet again
May God hold you in the palm of his hand"