I just something very bizarre, and it involved tackling a huge number of fears at once. And absolutely nothing bad happened. Which is great, because it seemed like there was a lot of bad happening. Like my ex asking me to move in with him, another death in the family, my friend's recent suicide attempt, getting rejected whilst trying to get laid, and just generally hating everybody. But then suddenly I tackled all these fears:
Winter driving
Being Alone at night
Trying to find an unfamiliar address
A Sexual Encounter
Performance Anxiety
To name a few, except for the part where I'm pretty sure my ass wasn't as clean as it could have been. Awkward. Or maybe not. Honestly, I'm not squicked out by these types of things as you might think. I guess I just don't care.
But it brings a few issues to the forefront:
1. I'm horny
2. But also lovingly horny
3. Which makes me sort of dangerous
I like orgasms and all, but I really want to kiss. Without kissing it feels odd. Like I'm some kind of sickly person under quarantined that can't be touched. Which leads to feeling confused and unattractive. So sexy time without kissing is kind of like a peanut butter and jelly sandwich without bread. You still get the same flavors, but you're clearly missing something. And its all confusing and hard to eat.
Speaking of which, I'm hungry
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