Maybe Boyfriend?

I watched a movie with the nice guy I have a crush on the other day. And I so badly messed up the last time we watched a movie together that I figured the same thing would happen. But surprisingly enough, the progression of us sitting together to us making out, to getting naked together, was almost completely seamless. And wordless for that matter. I wasn't shaking like I normally am when hooking up for the first time (or honestly more times than the first time, I'm generally always shaking during any kind of sex). It was so sweet and nice, no pressure for anything, just some touching in the dark. We were talking all cutesy to each other already. And then some sleep cuddling. And then I was just so comfortable I didn't want to get out of bed.

I'm so confused, because after losing two family members in one week, I was starting to worry if I was capable of any feelings at all. This month has just been such a nightmare that I just wanted something nice to happen. So I guess I just don't really know how to react. Are we dating now? Cause i mean we've technically been dating all this time then, since we go out to dinner and whatnot. Does it count as dating now that we've seen each other naked?

At any rate...who cares. I just need something to take the edge off. Hopefully this is it. I'm apprehensive since it has been exactly a year since I've been in something formally known as a relationship. So I'm trying to be a little standoffish in order to avoid a feelings explosion of some sort.