Everybody else can love you just fine, so why can't you?
I am tired of acting as the social synthesizer for so many people. I keep trying to help people out, I have to be there to mediate the tension, or awkwardness. I have to be in charge of keeping people together, of gathering them together, of making the phone calls, checking in, making the plans. Why? I have to listen to advice I didn't ask for, get thrown under the bus, hang around and do a bunch of things I don't want to. What am I really gaining out of this interaction? Good moral standing? Karma? We can already see what good Karma has given me. Nothing. A bunch of shit really.
I am just annoyed, when do I get my support? When do I get what I asked for? And honestly, would I even know how to answer if some asked me, "What is it that I can do for you?" I don't know really.
Sounds like people are taking you for granted. That really sucks. I wish I could offer advice but instead
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