Loss

I will never forget the pain of loss, the feeling of wanting what once was, the desire to erase reality and say "I never knew that person." That bizarre feeling of impermanence, the uncertainty of what will happen next. The confusion, the guilt "I should have done this, I should have done that," the shame, "Why can't I get over this?" "Am I doing something wrong? Did I overreact?" the anger, "Why did this happen? Why doesn't everyone else feel my pain?" Is it okay to dwell, is it okay to cry and feel pain? How long is too long to bear such a burden?

I think that the worst part of all is the horrible reality that everyone has the same fate, we all have to leave this world, we all have to feel the pain of losing others. You can never escape.

Now and forever shall be a world with an end.