Sunday, April 7, 2013
Relationships
I want to be in a relationship. I'm also terrified to be in a relationship. But I want one anyways. I may not be myself lately, but I so badly want to be. I want good things. I want a good life. I want to love and be loved.
Wednesday, April 3, 2013
Privacy
This is a private blog for obvious reasons. Like how much I talk about private things and private parts. There are no names, places and events are meant to be vague. And most importantly, no person in my real life knows this URL. It's supposed to be like that.
What I wanted is to be able to express my thoughts without fear of people being offended or embarrassed, myself included. However, I place it in a public sphere because I want other people in the world to be able to read it. To read another person thoughts and realize that you are not alone is extremely comforting at times. To have the love and support of an anonymous is always comforting. And sometimes, the opportunity to have thoughts and opinions without them being assigned to you The Person, but rather you UntrustUs, some asshole on the internet who makes words.
And I want people to read in take comfort or interest in the words of UntrustUs, and not in My Real Identity. Because it's easier that way.
Which is why I found it so unsettling to find that Google has been linking my accounts with other easily identifiable accounts. Accounts that have my full name on them and such. It's slightly terrifying. I don't know why google is so adamant on the concept that we should be completely accountable for all our words all the time. Surprisingly, I don't want my post about buttsex to show up on my google+ news feed for all my friends and old professors to see. Imagine that!
Oh well, in the end. Words are words. I will continue to write them, just like I hope people continue to read them.
What I wanted is to be able to express my thoughts without fear of people being offended or embarrassed, myself included. However, I place it in a public sphere because I want other people in the world to be able to read it. To read another person thoughts and realize that you are not alone is extremely comforting at times. To have the love and support of an anonymous is always comforting. And sometimes, the opportunity to have thoughts and opinions without them being assigned to you The Person, but rather you UntrustUs, some asshole on the internet who makes words.
And I want people to read in take comfort or interest in the words of UntrustUs, and not in My Real Identity. Because it's easier that way.
Which is why I found it so unsettling to find that Google has been linking my accounts with other easily identifiable accounts. Accounts that have my full name on them and such. It's slightly terrifying. I don't know why google is so adamant on the concept that we should be completely accountable for all our words all the time. Surprisingly, I don't want my post about buttsex to show up on my google+ news feed for all my friends and old professors to see. Imagine that!
Oh well, in the end. Words are words. I will continue to write them, just like I hope people continue to read them.
Monday, April 1, 2013
Biting Remarks
I have little patience for people who choose to repeatedly express thoughts they haven't clearly articulated. Use your damn brain and shut up. Don't fuck with people's heads. It seems like a given to me, but dating has told me that this is not a given to people. People think they can say whatever they want and then be able to retract with a magical apology later, which has the power to make words never have been said. No, that's just not true. Things you say should be indicative of the things you actually genuinely feel. And if they aren't, you are doing something wrong.
Own up to your own god damn feelings already.
Own up to your own god damn feelings already.
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